Category Archives: Memoir

The Newspaper

  space Already exhausted by mid-week, weary from overwork trying to shore up another failing attempt to find one paying niche in a dying industry, I slept hard and was taken deep into the sidhe of this dream: I was … Continue reading

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The Sound Of The Sea

space Long ago — toward the bottom of the silo of memory which sings in me – I sat by the sea, entranced at the sound of its voice blent with our mother’s as she stood over me, womb to … Continue reading

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Finn-gering

space When the fian are on the brink of the Suir, Culdub comes out of a sid or “elf-mound,” and steals their food three times in succession as it is being cooked. On the third occasion Finn ua Baiscne gives … Continue reading

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Summer Blockbuster

space On that greater screen our hero finds a bomb packed in a van. We hear with him the ticks of doom, and though his face is calm as ironed leather, tense cellos burn a hidden fuse of terror in … Continue reading

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The Stand

space I don’t much recall how I got into those rooms—-at closing time all doors are dark-—though waking in memory always seemed the same, bedside in rooms lost in suburbs you know are out there yet pray to never see, … Continue reading

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Learning to Forget That Passionate Singing, Writing Every High and Low Note Down

“Orpheus’ Lament” by Alexandre Seon, 1896. space In January 1999 my wife’s nephew James drove too fast on I-95 one halcyon Saturday, swerved around a slower car, overcorrected and went flying off the road, his red Honda Civic howling rap … Continue reading

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“You Must Believe In Spring”

space Late summer of  ‘95: Two years into my divorce, the hardest hammers of separation and guilt for breaking up a family ebbed back far enough to yearn again for what sustains. En route I went crazy for a young … Continue reading

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The Naked Singularity

space I. When a star collapses, spent of its fuel so much that it reverses pulse – refracting back all that once beamed — inversion mounts to a threshold beyond which everything dances behind darkest veils, canceling our ability to … Continue reading

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Black Womb

space For years I’ve gotten up at this too-early hour to read and write God’s plenty down, filling these books of wild blue udder with fin and hoof in inky-blue wonder, in & out & round & down this mortal … Continue reading

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Letter to an Dead Shaman: Guinnevere

space “… Usually sickness, dreams, and ecstasies in themselves constitute an initiation, that is, they transform the profane, pre-’choice’ individual into a technician of the sacred. Naturally, this ecstatic type of experience is always and everywhere followed by theoretical and … Continue reading

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